operation sunshines

Day 1 of my adventure

2011-09-26T16:23:00.001-04:00

So once I got off the train we took a metro straight to college park. Oh and then a shuttle bus. We got there and not going to lie, it was pretty boring. I put my stuff down in his room and we went to find his friends, but apparently they were all in dc. So we found some girls up stairs and heard all about their crazy adventures from Saturday night. I went to james' soccer game ad kind of just chilled. We did other stuff it was kind of boring though until the night happened, cause kids are crazy at night

My extemporaneous trip to dc

2011-09-25T12:29:00.001-04:00

Hi, so I'm on the train now with my good friend James and were off to dc . Im staying here for 3 days and I want to have an adventure. So I decided that I should blog about it, ya know? Like write everything Dow that's vapor if and kind of make this trip a feat of impotancr in my life and all. I mea oats the first time that I have full freedom to do whatever I wish . James goes to college park Maryland so he's always a metro away and really excited to spend some time with him, but well see what happens. I'm I the city where you're supposed to learn and there are tons of politics and honestly it's beautiful.

So I'm sitting on the quiet car of the Amtrak and typing this all out on my new iPhone.

Let's get shiz done.

Its been a really long time since ive blogged.

2011-08-04T14:49:00.000-04:00

Dear World,
its gotten to that magnificent time where I have to crank out a fantastic college essay that will somehow get me into college. Of course, the essay topics are nothing original:

•A major personal experience, achievement, risk or ethical dilemma he has faced and its impact on him; or...
•An issue of personal, local, national, or international concern and its importance to him; or...
•An individual who has deeply impacted him and why; or...
•A fictional character, historical personage, or creative work that has profoundly influenced him and why; or ...
•A personal experience that best illustrates the diversity he will bring to the university community; or...
•A topic of his choice.

For somereason I don't see anything I have done as a overwhelming experience achievement or risk that I would have any fun writing about, I mean if i dont think its too interesting im sure the very kind man or woman who reads and grades it wouldnt think it was too interesting either.

Damn.

So im thinking to myself now and I am trying to think of something creative to write about.

Duct Tape.

Around 2000 people could write about duct tape, but how interesting would that be if i wrote an essay on making a duct tape dress for breat cancer. i mean come on, its nothing that special.

Being Jewish.

I<3Jewz.
That would be kind of terrible though if the grader was anti semetic.

BBYO.

Youth Groups. Joy.

Why I Have a Secret Passion for Africa.
I think we have something here.

So I have this secret passion for Africa that I bring up more and more every day. When people ask me what college I want to go to, I tell them I am not going to college, I am going to Africa. They give me this look every time.

I want to go to Africa because they need my help. Thousands of years ago, all of the world was in the same state of being. There were tribes that traveled around and they hunted and gathered food and they would have a war with eachother every now and then. But, as civilazations started to develope the best places were taken and towns were made there. This would all be great if the population didnt grow and grow and grow and soon as industries popped up and all that jazz, people decided to take advantage of eachother, to the extreme.

In short, this 21st century modernized-everything is great and all, but becuase of it Africa shouldnt be exploited for it.

Africa has a lot of shit going on: war, sex trade, genocide, hunger, Aids,
Child labor and other devistations that are happening every day. Meanwhile, I get to live in a ricch suburb of america where my peers' most common concern is what kind of car they are getting on their 16th birsthday and whether or not they will be asked to prom.

I dont know about you, but I know where i'm needed more.

My interest in Africa grew off of the organization, The Girl Effect. The girl effect shows a process where one young girl in africa can change the course of the world.

If one girl in africa can change the cource of the world, then would helping multiple girls in multiple villages better the course of the world?

That would make sence.

So I hope Ill be blogging a bunch more, but until then i hope you have fun writing college essays.

oh, also check out girleffect.org its truly amazing

keep happiness with you.

love.

this is no longer operation sunshines

2011-05-02T21:27:00.000-04:00

i really like thinking of the most random things all in a row.

it makes me smile.

i forgot about this blog

2011-04-30T23:17:00.001-04:00

i forgot about this blog. its kind of funny. i was talking to a person that i dont really know how to describe becuase , well, hes a friend but more than a friend. he's not my boy friend, but i crush on him. hmm. well, i was talking to someone who makes me smile and i was telling him some story that just really went on and on becuase there were all other inter stories (you know those kinds?) and i was talking and suddenly i was talking about blogging. and it was weird. i havnt seriously bloggest for a year. So then instead of doing what i was supposed to be doing i signed on to this acount and read a couple posts. i smiled. i wish i was a writter, but frandly i am not. yet, i write quite often. i write in this diary , actually i have multiple diaries each about a different subject:boys, drama, theatre, and misc. tose are funny becuase i can pin point the exact emotions i was feeling when i wrote them. these, not so much. to put it blaintly, somre are really boring.
that probably why i stopped bloging.
anyway
i really like art.
i think art is beautiful, magical, and mysterious.
i think art and i would be pretty fantastic lovers.
lovers. kind of like mickey and minnie or prince william and catherine.
everyone says theyre in love.
i always go back to love, don't i?
passion.
passion fruit vitamin water is really good, id recommend it.
i have no idea where this is going.
im kind of enjoying it though.
so.
i hope to fall in love one day.

signed,
a realler than life easter bunny.
funny thing though is that im jewish.
and the easter bunny seems pretty cool.

spread sunshine. its supposed to be warm tomorrow anyways :)

peace.

the word love.

2010-08-18T14:59:00.001-04:00

for the past week or so i kept wanting to write about the word love. disclaimer: every person in this world has a different opinion of what love is.

i just came back from a 2 week trip which i made 85 new friends. before i left i told them all 'i love you'. love i feel used in this tense is the mere ackeing i knew i would feel upon our parting, the missing and thinking abot them that will go on for maybe years. or the ultimate grautitude i have for them as the last post said :for the moments that will change my life.

they changed my life. and for that, i love them.

then there is that love that comes out when they say something i enjoy thuroughly. I love that, i love you. In theroy, that love doesn't mean anything. Well it means something, its just not as heavy.

then, then there is that romantic love that i know nothing about.

but what is love. when I looked it up I found:

upon millions of more random explination of feelings.

What happened to feelings being undescribable?

I leave you with this:
What is your deffinition of love?
Is it only on thing
or two
or three?
Can you write it on paper?

Can you define it for yourself?

those things that change your life.

2010-08-08T04:10:00.004-04:00

you know when those things come up and you say, "Wait, what just happened?" and then the fact that you can pin point an exact moment even though it happened 10 years ago and it lasted but 5 seconds. you do know them. but what exactly were they other than moments that changed your life. opiphanies are started by a pushing factor, or releasing factor. then they can go where ever you take them.

see, people are sometimes so reluctant to the phrase ' you can take your life wherever you wish' but why? i can tell you for sure my life isnt exactly where i wish it to be, but i make those decisions.

i think the key word to this entire post is initiatives. take them, drop them, trust them, forget them. do with them what you wish but always know that they are there. yet if you jump on the oppertunity to help a friend, to work a little harder, to sleep a little later the initiativesturn meaningful. life is too short to forget about initiatives because then where would you get? no where.

where/ how is this post going to come full circle? well, its called those moments that change yor life forever. well, those moments are precious but you have to know what youre going to do with them. take the initiative. be the one who grows, changes the world, or simply just changes yourself.

warning: this will probably turn into a rant.

2010-05-10T22:47:00.001-04:00

I hate boundaries. and thats pretty much what i did with this blog, give myself boundaries. And that is probably also why i partially lost interest in blogging, and then didn't blog at all. which is unfortuneate.

kiss.
those four letters can bring the highest and deepest of emotions.
its kind of unbelievable.
actually, there is a 97% chance you smiled when you saw that word.
kiss.
okay, that was a lie, i do know some people that won't smile.
but that is becase they are young.
naive.
im young and naive too, dont get me wrong.
but i still smile.
i like when people smile,
it makes me smile.
like in a movie theatre when there are what seems like 100s of girls walking out of the Last Song.
and some of them you can tell were crying,
but they were all smiling.
truthfully, i dont smile coming out of a miley cyrus movie .
but they made me smile.
have you written a list of things that make you smile?
i just thought of one.
spaghetti and tomatoe sauce.
food doesnt usually make me smile...
i promise.
i promise i will stop giving my self boundries.
could you promise the same thing?
ask yourself.
oh, and be you you want to be.
dont ask others who you are.
but also, dont ask the top layer of yourself, because it has been contaminated.
by pop culture.
and ugly people.
becuase only ugly people can tell you your world is ugly.
this peice of writing makes me think i have ADD.
oh well.
love life.
please?

Home

2010-05-01T18:01:00.000-04:00

Home is a place
where one lives and breathes
but its not where you sleep
thats a house
it could be a home though
what amkes a home a home
is when you learn to roam
you'll always find your way back
to home.
your home.
its where you could sleep
it you wished
but my home
i dont sleep there
i grow
and its not a place
but its home.

Bonjour.... or lets just skip the minor importance of this title...

2010-04-14T22:19:00.000-04:00

Hey Everyone! I'm sorry I haven’t posted on this site for a white, I've been really busy!.... Anyways, I decided I wanted to start some order to this blog: not have random long and short posts every few months. That’s lame.

So here's my game plan. Weekly do-its.

What are they?... well I do not really know, but for now they are going to be tasks you can do at home or in your community for not a lot of money (if any). These tasks aren’t normal tasks though, they are things that can better you, your neighbor, or a stranger.

ANYWHO...task #1
In my opinion, the way to successfully help someone out and feel good about you is to be at peace with yourself....on that note, in order to advance with helping other people. Find a place to take a break from your stressful life. It shouldn't be the TV. Couch or in front of any electronical devise. Just go there. Every day. For just five minutes and just think. Step back from the world because you can. I promise you, you can. But no cheating.... don’t think about the work you still need to accomplish or go through the list of activities left to do that day. It’s worth it. Just try it for a week, you’ll feel a difference

.Tell me.

2010-03-17T22:15:00.000-04:00

i have a question for you.
you can answer it,
out loud,
through text,
through music,
your choice.
what is something you achieved.
something you accomplished though never thought possible.
something that changed you.
something that defined you.
post it.
or email to opsunshines@gmail.com.
your name.
or anonymous.
your choice.
and mid April check back and see why I asked.
please.
Inspire me as i continue to try to inspire you.

love.

The little moments

2010-03-08T22:29:00.000-05:00

There are big moments and little moments. The big moments, those are the ones that include things great in time or great in measure. They are the things that can shape your life and give you structure. But, its the little moments that are just for a minute, or even a second
a laugh
a smile
a kiss
a hug
a 'hello'
a wish

and many more, are the things tha can just make life worth living.
hint of they day : live life.
question of tomorrow: what can i change?
answer of yesterday: you are incredible.

love.

sometimes...

2010-03-03T19:09:00.001-05:00

sometimes, all it takes is to tell one person. just to get the daily stresses off that just keep growing. just to let them hear it, see it, feel it. sometimes, it can give you the strength to let it go.

sometimes, all it takes is to write one poem, one story, one letter, one song. somthing that can elevate your mind in a creative way, not just keeping your mind off your troubles, but turning them into an incredible piece of literature. sometimes, it can show something's real colors.

sometimes, all it takes is drawing, playing an instument, singing a lullaby, to make the sorrows go away. it is an extraordinary thing though, the way that using an artitic element, a whole new world can appear. something no one has ever seen before. sometimes, it can even inspire others.

sometimes, all of the time gets boring. nothing is all of the time. that is almost impossible. sometimes its time to say 'im tired of my all of the time. i like my sometimes.' sometimes is when you can spice things up. sometimes is when you can do the impossible, because if you did something all of the time, it will always be possible.

"nothings impossible, the word itself says im possible"

love.

can you say cliche?

2010-02-23T20:54:00.000-05:00

So, this blog isn't 100% what I planed for it to be, that’s ok. But, by rereading my past posts, I came up with one thing: I am fake. Well, just this blog sounds fake. I’m learning how to love life but it is still a struggle. I still have problems and issues that are bottled up, and I won't even take my own advice to let them out. Sometimes, it seems like there isn’t a time or place or person. I just want to lock myself up in a corner and never come out. And it’s terrible. But then, I remember something.

Carpe diem
Seize the day
Take nothing for granted

Take that opportunity to do something great for yourself. Life is short. You can't spend it worrying about the little things, the horrid things. There comes a point when the most important thing is your family, friends, you. Go for it.
Shoot for the stubborn star that keeps getting farther away from you every time you give it a glance.
You can reach it.

hugs and kisses

2010-02-18T23:37:00.001-05:00

well, today was an interesting day. and by interesting, i mean really interesting.

as a part of national eating dissorder awareness week ( which starts the 21st) i did a couple of things that you all can do too:
1.put sticky notes with inspirational thoughts in over 100 recovery books (see operationbeautiful.com for more of that kind of stuff)
2.told her she was beautiful, and sincerely meant it.
3.i made (pretty damn awesome if i dont say so myself) t-shirts. some i gave to my friends but others i had other people confidentially give one to another girl.
4.got my friends into it. anything really, that you enjoy, can almost always be more fun, especially when its brightening someone else's day.
o and tomorrow my friend is supposed to walk around school with a free hugs and [hershey] kisses...

well, there are some things you can do. now, go out and do them. im not kidding. you'll feel really good if you do. and it will make someone's day. do it. today, tomorrow, in 86 hours. ? Just go through with your plans. you can put as little or much effort in it as you want to.

i guess, it seems custom that i cant leave you with out some insite to yourself. well, the beauty of this is thats what op sunshines ultimately does. by helping people, you help your self, you aid yourself through life impacting as much you as the person that recieves you act.

its kind of like one of those penny jars. the 'take one leave one'.... it helps both ways.

go fly, the possibilities are endless.

love

the greatest kind of peace

2010-02-11T23:52:00.003-05:00

i'd like to imagine, the greatest kind of peace, is peace within one's self. this sounds kind of crazy, i know, but how can you go anywhere, if you are at war with yourself?
i think, actually, most people are at war with themselves... whether they think they are pretty, or if they are a good person, or if they have made the right decision. it is an on going battle over right or wrong, good or bad. my question is when and how will this war end?

this question can't be answered by the internet, nor an onlooker. only, you can answer the question. of course, someone can lead you through it though.

once, my friend told me of this program that enforces positive mind body aditude. i think this is a perfect guide, but you have to find out for yourself what the three words mean to you. mind. body. attitude.

the peace within yourself ranges, but ultamitely you chose how it will effect you and if and when it will turn into a war. by war, it could start as just constant discontent, but if fueled by an outside source, it can turn horrid. it can turn to something where you are no longer in control of it, something else is be it a person or disease. dont let that happen. the war within yourself can be tamed because you are strong.

february 21-27th is national eating disorder awareness week. this is the perfect time to prove that you and the people around you can learn and teach others how to win the war within yourself.

happiness.
courage.
strength.
love.
hope.
beauty.
peace.

Choices and Decisions... and no, I dont mean College

2010-02-02T22:44:00.000-05:00

Choices choices choices... the world is full of them- every second of the day. you may not think about it, but you do choose to walk right instead of left, to listen to jack johnson or owl city, to get up in the morning and wear a gree. shirt instwad of a pink one..every little detail. but those are relatively easy choices.... and the decisions, are rarely looked upon- except for clothes that is, especiall in high schoo- but, its the hard choices we stumble on makeing a decision for.

I dont know what goes into making a decision, like what scientific parts of the brain control it or anything to matter, but i know one thing; dicisions make differences. last week, i had to make a decision. it was a question of morals, friendship, and a little bit of facebook stalking.

So, you know how in high school if there are assigned seats, well there just happens to be a boy in 3 of my classes with assigned seats-and we happened to sit next to eachother. Naturally, i notice things about him. If you haven't already guessed, i'm more of the passive type, i choose when or when not to open my mouth. Anyway, this boy, i will name him Joe , was the class clown all through middle school, and a varsity athlete and all honors classes ect ect ect. This only leads up to something bad, right? Well kind of. I noticed something was different about Joe from the begining of the year; less whit, depressing comments, and a fake smile plastered across his face. I also saw a percise cut across his wrist. Before I move on, get this straight, I probably never spoke a word to Joe other then hi, good morning, and bye. Anyway, I decided Joe would be a part of my operation. I hid Joe things, small candies, little notes, but though it was 'nice' and though I did see a smile on his face- a real smile that is.... not a fake one... one day I forgot...i didn't give him a note or a smile.... the next day he was absent... the day after that, faker then he has ever acted before and not a band-aid 2 inches thick.

now i know I am not an expert, nor have any knowledge of anything, but right then and there I had to tell someone..... Yes, the moral of my extra long story is 'i had to tell someone'... as much as little inspirational quotes and treats from a stranger can do, there comes a point of time when you can get real help; when you know you have dont your part and this is the best you can do.... because if something ever happened.... if something like death happened.... you would never forgive yourself.

operationsunshines is more of a before the fact movement, to have people unified and not to binge the first time- ratrher then not doing it the 25th. THough you may want to change the world, sometimes you have to admit someone else can fix this better then you can, you've done the best you could, and you were amazing at it

I leave you with love and hope.
Hope that you love to live.
Love so you can live to hope.

Let it out.

2010-01-24T21:28:00.000-05:00

As I sit here on my computer thinking about what I am going to write, if i have anything to write, and how the heck i can find more followers, I try to remember what inspires me. But, what inspires me?, i do not know. Probably music, there is something sentimentaly universal about it, the fact that it can make you smile and happy-go-lucky, or sad-about to cry. Sometimes its good to cry... scratch that, its great.

Crying doesnt mean weakness. Crying shows strength. the strength to show your feelings. its not worth being bottled up. being bottled up can lead to terrible things. Think of it this way: you, are bottled up, imagine a bottle, just a plain, ordinary bottle. fill it with the pressures and stresses of every day; friends, school, work, relationships, an on going list. There are 3 things that may happen with this bottle: there could be a hole in the bottle, draining it steadily, once the bottle fills up only what doesn't fit in pours out the top, and 3, the bottle fills up so much, it explodes. Best case senario after exploding; you fall into a mini depression, worst case senario; someone else dies.

What am i asking you to do? To cry. let everything go one day and just let it out, becasue you need to. It is okay. But, don't forget, you have to get everything back, you still have to go on with your life, just take that one time a month to let it go, let it out.

though there are millions out there, here is one one the greatest-tear-jerking music videos i've seen ( warning don't watch this if your in a good mood)

with love as always, seeking the power to inspire

100 things

2010-01-18T20:48:00.001-05:00

Recently, I talked to a friend who seemed to be somewhat on the same page as me. She, needed a way to make herself happy and was so moved by the experience that she wanted others to feel it too. She asked herself,

what one hundred things make me smile?

So now, I pass this on to the world of bloggers and followers, to further her project, make a list, what 100 things make you smile? and you can post it as a comment if you want( i will post mine sooner or later)

On another note, this weekend I went sort of crazy with post its. I went to a sleep over and every one of the 10 girls got a special note for them ( i dont know how i got away without them all waking up) tomorrow I plan passing more notes on lockers, bathrooms, cafeteria tables and see how it goes...

when you beleive in your dreams you can suceed the impossible.

day three... but not really

2010-01-13T21:10:00.001-05:00

Hey all. So I'm going to be blunt, the second worse thing that could have happened , happened. The worst thing being my true identity found out, called to the principle and getting a detention for a truely random and bizarre reason. But that didn't happen. What did happen was someone ( probably school janitors) took all of the post-its down(I think there were about 10 or so up) in less then 24 hours.

Though this is a step back, I still have hope. But before I go back to my shadowed ways, doing things and having people know who you are is good too. What bothers me the most is 'the new kid'. Trust me, I have deffinately said that numerous times in the past month (when they have been in school for 5 months, but their newness is just relative). Watch when and how your saying it. Also, it couldn't hurt to invite them over to your table during luch either, they could be really cool. Secondly, giving sincere compliments will truely make a persons day. It isn't a joke, if you were looking at someones profile picture and thought wow, she looks gorgeous, tell her, because no matter what circumstance it will make her day.

So how about telling someone they are beautiful tomorrow?
By the way, you are beautiful.
Beauty...
Spread it.

Multimedia message

2010-01-11T20:24:00.001-05:00

this is a pic of one of the messages ! see more at operationbeautiful.com

day one...

2010-01-11T20:24:00.000-05:00

I wanted to start off slow and simple yet effective. To do this, I started with the help of opperation beautiful, a movement trying to get rid of fat talk with anonymous post it notes. Through out my school in almost every basthroom I left hot pink sticky notes with sayings like "beauty is not a size" and "don't let this mirror define you... it is jealous of your beauty". I want to see what happens... if people write back or if I overhear anyone talk about it.

I decided to simplify and narrow down my opperation. Operation Sunshines is a mission trying to make high school life that much brighter. Anyone can participate and anyone can follow any of the smaller projects that go in it. Also, I decided that to be the most effective opperation as possible, i included my friend, Sara, in the secret. :)

Peace. Love. and a Brighter World.

Starting off...

2010-01-10T13:20:00.004-05:00

Hello blog world! I don't know what exactly I want to put in my first blog but,im hoping that through more bloging, I will be able to figure out what I want to say.

I go to the most average high school there is. As much as people like to say there aren't cliques, there are. Jocks, cheeleaders, band geeks, theatre geeks, brainiacs,and the list keeps going. But the biggest problem with our school, and with almost every school in America, and possibly the world, is that the sun shines less.

I know, that makes no sence but figure this: You have all of the kids that dress in all black and wear dark make up (informally known as emo). Then you have the kids that go straight to drugs or alcohol to get that moment of false enjoyment. Then you have the kids that are depressed,but no one knows. And when all else fails they fill the headlines, "Honors Role Boy Hangs Himself Last Night"...or the whispers, "She is back in rehab...purging was her only way out..." For those reasons, I want to make a diference because if that one girl was told she was beautiful the day she decided to first cut herself, or if that one boy found a guitar pick and was out playing guitar insead of stumbling across the group of boys that offer him his first joint. If I just help one person, or get one smile, I believe anything I do is worth it.

But more so, I want to inspire others, I want other people helping other people, because truely, it isnt that hard. This operation is going to be as anonymous as I can make it, and I'm going to try to blog every step of the way.

Get inspired to do something amazing!